Becoming insane

Tomorrow is Sunday and will be the first day of college for part 1. The stakes are getting higher if you know what I mean. Throughout my life. I've criticize for many things for not being pretty and smart and idiot and not knowing how to do this and that and already been doubly stressed by all these factors but yet I still survive and definitely Thank God for helping to go through all these problems as well as with the support of my friends and also my family especially my mama ( not my own biological mother/ Aunty) and also papa (my uncle). So as my own parents especially my own dad and my mum too.My stress level has been shooting up 0 - 100%. Plus with something extra the burden has been added to me. But I'm just keeping silent to myself and I'm glad those who really really knew, know that how much I've changed. Oh well! until today first impression counts right? To many people and I guess is not easy for me to go through that path being criticize every detail of my life from looks to education and also my capability in handling this and that.
In all things give thanks God for pulling me through. I know that is not an easy path and is only when you are really down that you depend on God more.  God Bless Everyone and have a nice day.

Tomorrow is the day!!!!

When it comes to exam results what was in your mind in the first place? The answer is whether am I going to pass or fail? Oops! Tomorrow would be the day! I have experience failure in school exams but Not the major ones like UPSR, PMR, SPM and also STPM!!! And also including My driving test! All pass once and for all! And Definitely I really thank God for all the exams results that I have throughout my life until now. No one knows what will happen tomorrow! Only God knows and it is really important to put full trust in The Lord! I also know what is the problem me. The problem with me is because of procrastination I study almost everything last minute! Even for my LLB exam I have started studying 3 months before my exam! And I'll never know what happen me especially. And definitely be prepared for failing all subjects. It was like 20 times worse than STPM as we need to complete the syllabus within 8 months and our performance is based within 3 hours for one paper!!! I am quite heart sickening though! And I never consider myself as a smart or hardworking student! 

Scary but okay .....

I really thank God for a successful injury! And I really thank God for having great friends and  family who has been visiting me and concern for me. I also always wonder this is a really small world while I was in hospital! Oh well! And this in not the end of everything but just the beginning of everything! And Yeah Congratulations to Navini and Elysse Diong for being the top scorers in Malaysia under University of London Programme. My greatest moment of feat would my results I don't even dare to have a look at them and I know there is something terrible that will happened. Trying to stay clam and steady! Just aiming for pass! and for all subjects! Hopefully I can scrape through for my Part 2. Give thanks to God for the life he has given to me. And Hopefully I won't be having troubles after taking out the 20 centimeter of my redundant sigmoid colon and not being of suspect having IBS-C. If you know what it means!:)

Have a nice day everyone!

Insecure....

There is one thing very common among girls that they would say that " ....... is prettier than me" which I think completely true. Most of time we always think that person is much more prettier  and smarter than ourselves  and insecurity will always be there. As the world goes around and changing all the time and that people wants to become younger and prettier every single. No offense for those have that thought of going for facial and manicure and pedicure and stuff and getting hair done (which is what I like the most) and make up and stuff but what I am trying to say is that Don't ever think so negative that someone is much more prettier than you and maybe there is someone else who thinks that your pretty. Your parents would definitely think you are the sweetest person on earth and also never forget that God the creator would always think that you are pretty and beautiful in his sight! :)

Gossip!

Gossip is something which is popular among people and gossip definitely doesn't express the truth and especially talking about someone and gossip is similar to badmouthing a person about how bad their situation and this and that and sometimes during the conversation gossip can be turn into malice and people sometimes even me myself I have to admit that until the exact that exaggeration is too vast which sometimes can be turn into a drama. Gossip is something which is juicy and what the bible says is true as gossip can spread like a fire so quickly.

James 3:5-6 (NIV)

 

⁵ Likewise, the tongue is a small part of the body, but it makes great boasts. Consider what a great forest is set on fire by a small spark. ⁶ The tongue also is a fire, a world of evil among the parts of the body. It corrupts the whole body, sets the whole course of one’s life on fire, and is itself set on fire by hell. 

and  continue by saying  in verse  ⁸ but no human being can tame the tongue. It is a restless evil, full of deadly poison. 

And that by right the tongue we have is to praise God. So what does the bible say about gossip?

 Proverbs 11:13
A gossip betrays a confidence, but a trustworthy person keeps a secret.

 Proverbs 16:28
A perverse person stirs up conflict, and a gossip separates close friends.

 Proverbs 26:20
Without wood a fire goes out; without a gossip a quarrel dies down.

However many would not realized that the purpose of having a tongue is to praise God and not gossip or curse the other person. I guess that we should spend more time talking something that is beneficial.

One of the things that I learn throughout this process is that the tongue we had or the voice we have comes from God and that we should thank God that we are not dumbfounded, what I am trying to say is that appreciate this small part of body that God has given to us and that we should use it to praise him always and also share the gospel and his love to other people especially the love one around us. 

It is common that as human beings we will not be completely satisfy ourselves and appreciate for what we have and that it is important to check on ourselves what we have said because a word itself can break a relationship apart and is important to become watchful even if you are being in an emotional state of mind . I know is not easy as is deep down within our sinful nature and that we are sinners.

I have to admit that is because we are not perfect therefore we need Christ.

 

 

Being Humble

Hi everyone, I know that I haven't been blogging so frequent as I have become very busy since the day I have started to work on an event for my mum and there was so much that I have learn from this event the theme is "Wound Healing with passion". I never really knew well what my mum's job really was and then when I discover almost everything and stuff and I knew that My mum obtain her Diploma those days under Diabetic Foot Ulcer in UM Medical Centre yes with her UM logo on her certificate and I know from A-Z about her work and she gave a talk to an international conference recently held in Sheraton Hotel. For this whole time I misjudge my mum telling her and questioning her why she dumped me after she gave birth to me after two days and is true after two days old she totally gave me away to my aunt who is also my 'mama' to take care of me for nine years and that one of the medical officer commented that my mum is actually a qualified podiatrist and that in Malaysia there is no Podiatrist in government health sector. What is a podiatrist? Podiatrist means Foot doctor. However my mum is a nurse under foot care specialist.

What really touches me was that my mum has touches lives of so many people and that was a very encouraging to hear from someone from Aunty Kumari my mum really uses her work place to serve God and also that one of the doctors said that sometimes they have to listen to nurses and learn from them and that humbleness and meekness is very important and that they also acknowledge that everything comes from God and that the duty of the doctor is to save the patients life and also their from being amputated. My mum is really brave that she's will to clean all those nasty and infected legs which how many people are willing to do it? Not many people would agree that they could serve God in their work place because most of the time we were taught to serve in church and that serving only provided with God's grace not by own strength or because people tell you to do so and it would be at  best to serve god with a willing heart together with humbleness.

At many times as a human I have to admit that we are being so arrogant thinking that we have done enough for God. While helping out this event in the working process as a volunteer or as a committee for this event is that I said this to the chairman " Thank You for giving me the opportunity to help out in this event and I have learn a lot". Is because of this event when I have the opportunity to help out I learn to appreciate so many things and that this event by helping out I have learned a lot and that is also possible to incorporate it into my course which is law. Of course people think I'm silly for helping out in this wound care event while I'm studying law and that I should go for legal firm attachment instead of getting involve with medical stuff.

At the end what I am trying to say is that my mum's work and the day she abandoned me for that nine years have been completely justified! And I do believe most of the time people would say that is so cruel that my mum gave me away to my relative after two days!

 

Relationships and roles

Today I learn so many things last night during the bible study with Yow Looi. The key point is know your role. Whether your role as a student or a church member or as a daughter and many more.

Oh well! One of the most important I have learn is that when you are in a relationship especially for Boyfriends and Girlfriends relationship it is very important to put God in the Centre of the relationship and that also woman must submit to their partner. I know is Odd right? Because the bible study is on 1Kings 18 about Elijah and Obadiah and that Ahab's wife had lead him astray because of his love for his wife over God and He worshiped Baal, same goes to Solomon and also talk about being unequal yoke as mention in 2nd Corinthians 6:14 whereby once again encouragement and supporting one another is also important. Other than BGR even as a church member we must learn how to support leaders as the Church is the body of Christ instead of complaining here and there. Oh well! I guess that it applies to general relationship as well but I guess last night's bible study was kinda 75% on BGR! and that it stresses that is important to pray for your the other partner and to grow in the Lord together and also about husband and wife's role (as stated in proverbs 31)  woman plays a submissive role or also known as supporting role also we shouldn't simply comment about other people's roles.

After come back from Bible study I had to helped out mum to print, cut and paste her whole list of attendance.I really Thank God for the many encouragements that I had received from my brother and sisters in Christ.